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I don't know if you know of the sorrow, of my pain
I don't know if you know of the trap i've fallen in
I don't know if you ever find the grave my soul is buried within
I don't know if you know how the tears in my eyes dance to and fro
I don't know if you know how my eyes is losing it's glow
I don't know if you know how my heart needs to cry
I don't know if you know how my soul longs to fly.

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Assure me you'll come at my grave
I will gladly die
Assure me you'll take my hand to save
I will gladly die
Assure me it will save you a tiny scar
I will gladly die
But all you ask me is to be good and I fall
To put a stop to it all,
I will gladly die
My angle, my darling
ask me to stop breathing
I will
ask me to go under a guillotine
I will
but being good
I have lost the power,
I’ve lost the will.

Listen

In an empty space
In stillness of my mind
There I cry out your name
if you listen to the silence
if you listen to the rain
if you listen to the wind
You may hear a voice calling you
a whisper in your ear.

The story

Once upon a time lived a girl in a world of her needs and quest
mysteries she should solve the best

The sweet memories she would save
was ready for the hard special road to pave

Kept waiting ……and waiting …and waiting
her birdlike eyes gazing ahead, dreaming

Far in the horizon would come to take her the rider on a horse
or if like Peter Pan she could float in the air with no force

Days marching forward, time passed and seasons changed
fresh leaves dried up but her mind the same remained

So the duck turned into a swan
the girl grew up to become a woman

a woman who has the mind of a baby girl
the quest, needs and desires a swirl

Now the girl a woman and her heart easy to break
sunshine smiles each day for her sake
she dares not make a mistake

Surviving up and downs of life
she’s not an angel .. she is just a wife

the quests, needs and desire still in her mind a frame
to give her reason to live; to make her days colorful not the same
may a pure heavenly love warm her up in a flame.

So beautiful ... needs no words

The meaning

Wonder if life has a meaning
people wandering, sometimes gaining or losing

are there keys to doors and roads to cross
is love the sweet reason to come to life for us?

not a philosopher
but I know Love is the answer

the pearl hidden inside a heart
you'r not able to get apart

pure and strong
a fire burning fiercely within night and day long

leaving no thought,

but the one you sought

pure and powerful
simply wonderful

not a scientist
but I know love truly exist.

The Wonderland

The land I live in is green
which I stepped in as a queen

No voice, no sound; far far away from a crowd
rabbits looking happy and proud

Just the sound of silence
just the sea glittering in brilliance

And silence keeps me company
or sometimes broken to let a bird sing to me

The only roof is my blue sky which the birds feel free to spread their wings and fly
flapping its colorful wings little butterfly; no need to worry, no need to cry

The birds and butterflies living free
since my land is clean of enemy

Just the bright colored lively flowers surrounding me
the sun and the moon each a beauty; Shining from above and smiling in harmony.

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Cool and fresh like the morning breeze .......
Comes a feeling to make someone's heart at ease

an untold story

In the quietness of a summer afternoon
here I laze a while on the ground
beside me glides my red balloon
a hand under my chin
my pen caressing the sleepy paper watching
Looking for words I try to find
to write you of my heart & of my mind
to write you of untold
to write you a story never sold
to write you about a wild horse
of her need and desire to ramble with no remorse
I would write infinitely
but words keep playing hide and seek with me
if time my captive and words obedient
I would be writing for you endlessly.

( I dedicate this poem to my dear friend)

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Overflow

Throwing the dark glasses away
the happiness comes back to me this way
for the sky looks bluer
and the sun shining brighter, O may
How beautiful to be a kid and play
How marvelous
As I put the dark glasses away
Worries packed and disposed
the sad mood to pester me vapors
Gloomy clouds vanish,
The grim face of life to hell with, I say
Throwing the dark glasses miles away
Seems everything smiles at me today
I hear a whisper,
asking me to smile back in return and I obey
The sparkle back,
into my eyes .. into The windows of my soul
I put a light at my windows
So through the darkness you may find your way

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The lovely flowers I recieved on my birthday

This is not a poem

There are days in my life I prefer to skip away
like I do today
Let it go with the wind .. let it blow away
I just watch and be the witness to a rainy day
Can't smile .... nor can I pray
Sorry for what I say
Can't help it .... everything seems gray
Save yourself and be away
I hate to see you hurt or dismay
By the way,
Tell me What is Love if you may

a deep breath

At the side of the wall a girl is waiting
a twinkle of hope in her dreamy eyes
her lips partly open
her mind an ocean
She's been waiting for so long
to defeat the time she mumbles a song
Now throwing aside her sorrow
She looks for an Opening, a Window
into a brighter world
where hearts need not be enfold
into the Other side
so to float with the serene peaceful tide
She's been kept in dark
Now she needs an embark
Giving out a sigh
a new try
She inhales a deep breath
A deep deep breath
to surrender
to welcome the future
mumbling a sweet happy song.

The wall

Wished I could break the wall
The cold silent mocking wall
blocking the road, blocking the way
I cry out in vain
A voiceless cry but nobody hears
am getting insane
the wind might hear me
or the sun & the moon and maybe the rain
they may hear and witness the pain.

On my back a bag

A cotton bag on my back I carry
waking up and back to life every day
My bag is jammed up with the life ahead
The days ahead which I can't count

The happenings I can't foresee

wondering how many days left in the bag

though it feels no heavy

wished I could peer in and see
I'v spent the most carelessly

The rest unknown, Future scares me

I flow with the currents, floating with destiny.

The night

Looking out my bedroom window I marvel at the beauty
The moon shining, smiling kindly

The night clear; silence everywhere
a fresh breeze appear

The scent is of a spring flower
A cascade of moonlight, silvery shower

through my window .. into my heart
caressing my body, caressing my soul

What a beauty! I ponder

Cold cold hearts

Take her from here...
To where her heart be no longer cold

Please

Birds open their wings wide in the air, seeking love
Creatures move in a hope of finding love
Wandering in mind I always be
as long as I live & as long as I find the air for me
O God ... where are Thee?
Your poor miserable maid needs You awfully
Into Your arm she needs to flee
Into Your arm as a refugee
She needs to be loved
She needs this mystery solved
Take her from here, from the filth of this world
To where her heart be no longer cold
To where love is as pure as gold
an everlasting world
where angles live & fly
where eagles dare not pry
You who brought love to earth
You who brought her along with birth
You who feed her and give her faith,
Please, quench her in love
before its too late.